Tag: Anxiety

Fear

Fear born within my stomach

Stretches out its arms

Tiny little twigs

That utterly disarm

It grows beyond its boundaries

Pulling at my chest

Paralyzes me for naught

So I can never rest

It pulses when my heart pumps

It inflated when I breathe

When I move it shudders

But it never leaves

It shakes my mind for thinking

I tingle when it laughs

And anywhere I try to go

It stops me in my path

Anything that calms me

It calls the enemy

Threatens my existence

Unless I swear to flee

So here I sit in silence

I stare but cannot see

Feeling naught but emptiness

Just my fear and me

Blood

~Inspired by In My Blood by Shawn Mendes

A sudden flame of anger burns

Me up, and never dies.

The daggers that are stabbing

Me, escape me through my eyes.

A fear that freezes till I’m shaking,

I can’t steady my voice.

Fight or flight? I’m frozen,

You act like I have a choice.

Deflated lungs that represent

My heart, my mind, my soul.

I’m all warmth and smiles outside,

But inside, I’m corpse cold.

Murmurers mumble that it’s all for show,

But my heart can’t pump this mud.

How do I battle an enemy

That’s living in my blood.

I poison it with alcohol

And feel a moment’s rapture

But my guts will punish me

With physical torture after.

I soothe it with medicine,

It supplements the villain,

Puts my mind to sleep

So my enemy can settle in.

Speed up my heart with natural cures,

Like sex, adventure, friends

But I just feel more alone

When the superficiality ends.

My greatest nemesis

Overcomes my veins by flood.

I haven’t given in yet;

It isn’t in my blood.