~Inspired by In My Blood by Shawn Mendes
A sudden flame of anger burns
Me up, and never dies.
The daggers that are stabbing
Me, escape me through my eyes.
A fear that freezes till I’m shaking,
I can’t steady my voice.
Fight or flight? I’m frozen,
You act like I have a choice.
Deflated lungs that represent
My heart, my mind, my soul.
I’m all warmth and smiles outside,
But inside, I’m corpse cold.
Murmurers mumble that it’s all for show,
But my heart can’t pump this mud.
How do I battle an enemy
That’s living in my blood.
I poison it with alcohol
And feel a moment’s rapture
But my guts will punish me
With physical torture after.
I soothe it with medicine,
It supplements the villain,
Puts my mind to sleep
So my enemy can settle in.
Speed up my heart with natural cures,
Like sex, adventure, friends
But I just feel more alone
When the superficiality ends.
My greatest nemesis
Overcomes my veins by flood.
I haven’t given in yet;
It isn’t in my blood.
Absently Searching 