Tag: Time

Parched

Rivers plan their course,

Following my quiet footsteps.

But I am a broken force,

Dragging along the shattered remains of what’s left.

I thirst.

Rain throws itself from the skies

To slide down my skin,

My lips refuse to part.

Only my eyes join in—

I weep.

Waves rise up and crash hard to reach me,

But I climb the highest rooftop— Scarred.

I’ve drowned before.

Each inhalation of water teaches me,

I’m cursed.

Life sits peaceful as an unstirred lake,

Fills me to my brim with flavourless, tepid, nothing

Numbs me till I cannot wake.

I long for it to shake, earthquake… something!

I sleep.

…And I dream of cold well water swallowed and streaming into my feelingless soul.

I shiver

Fear

Fear born within my stomach

Stretches out its arms

Tiny little twigs

That utterly disarm

It grows beyond its boundaries

Pulling at my chest

Paralyzes me for naught

So I can never rest

It pulses when my heart pumps

It inflated when I breathe

When I move it shudders

But it never leaves

It shakes my mind for thinking

I tingle when it laughs

And anywhere I try to go

It stops me in my path

Anything that calms me

It calls the enemy

Threatens my existence

Unless I swear to flee

So here I sit in silence

I stare but cannot see

Feeling naught but emptiness

Just my fear and me

5…4…3…

Death is calling to me

As giggles roll through my body,

As I fail at something new,

As I look over at the nobody

That fills the whole room.

He whispers to me,

While busyness unfolds into nothingness,

And too much noise shuts the doors into silence,

My reflection growing more grotesque

As I transform from plaintive to violent.

Death sits with me,

Watches my dreams,

And I sleep in his arms,

He says we’re on the same team—

I fall for his charm.

I can cry silently in a room full of people,

Write about suicide in buildings with steeples,

Fear the highs because I anticipate the lows,

Consumed by this Giant, as the madness grows.

Death counts with me

As minutes barely pass.

Then suddenly weeks are lost,

And he’s been counting down till I crash,

And I’ve been double-crossed.